I'm really concerned that I don't have enough money to do a Christmas this year. Some close family members have told me it's alright if I can't, but I'd still feel terrible to receive but not give on Christmas.
I know exactly how you feel, it's the same here. *hugs*
I even feel terrible, if I can't help or do anything. Or not buying gifts for family members I like. I was really happy, that I could give my brother at least 5€ for christmas, I know it's not much, but it showed at least, that I really like him and want the best for him. He was also happy, which made me even more happy.
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We're going to have the whole family over (including Malson) and await my sister and her two kids to open presents. It was pretty fun to watch my family pick out presents for Malson. They had to rely almost completely on his wishlist to know what to get him. It's hard to pick presents for the people that say "just get me anything ".
It's strange to say, even I'm really old and way out of the age, to believe in all that christmas stuff. But I really enjoyed it every year. My family stopped doing it, they never get together to eat or open presents. They all only give the presents direct, without any gift unwrapping and stuff. Kinda makes me sad, even I should be more grown up. (\s/)
For personal christmas day, I could say it gives as usual potato salad with swollen sausages (hope I got that right, I'm so terrible at translating some stuff
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For my own behaviour, not sure how I am. Something in between good and terrible...
Kinda weird, I guess I could describe it best as a happy emo.