Am I ever going to be accepted here?

Because you people really grasp at straws to justify hating on me all the time. You have no justification, and I think you guys are just doing it because you want to, at this point. You disagree? Then prove me wrong. Read this entire post, where I make my case. Let me defend myself. If you skim over it, or skip it and type "tl;dr", then you'll only prove me right. That you really don't care about logic.

Seriously, most of my craziest posts took place around two-thousand-fuck-seven. Three or four years ago. Basic logic dictates that I'm not the same person as I was at the time. And frankly, I'm tired of being thought of as such. Crazy posts should have a statute of limitations! You cannot possibly think it's fair to criticize me for my behavior from nearly half a decade ago. DINOSAURS remember those posts, for crying out loud. I've got dirt in my yard that's younger than my worst behavior on this site. So why you still think it's OK to treat me like I'm the same asshole, is beyond me. It makes no logical sense.

I am trying my BEST with you people. I don't attack unprovoked. I merely post my question, and hope for answers. And yet you still say such mean things to me without cause. Lemme address a recent quote that has me confused:

You earned the harassment you get here, and you should expect it.

Really? When did I "earn" this harassment? Y'see, when I asked Anski to help me explain why I still get mistreated on here, he quoted me a post from years ago, in which I burst out in anger at the suggestion of buying a new laptop, because "Not everyone is a fat rich white man." That was totally rude of me, and it was wrong. But it was years ago. So let me just ask, what did I say most recently in the face of the same suggestion? I said this:

I were you I would buy a new computer that is not of the same brand.

Would if I could. Though I very rarely have issues with this laptop in particular. This one has been very good to me and I've been very good to it. At the moment, I'm saving for a new PC. It'll be a while. But once I do, I'll probably post one of those "Help me build a PC!" threads.

Now, I'd like you to point out the hostility in my response above. Because I don't see any. Do you? No? The same kind of suggestion, yet a COMPLETELY different response from me! Objective logic dictates that I cannot possibly be the same rude asshole I used to be. But you guys wouldn't let something like facts, or evidence prevent you from berating me. Because you don't really care about logic, do you? You just like having your punching bag.

Let me just take this time to address my two more recent comments that you actually have a legitimate reason to be angry about. The ONLY two comments you still have a LEGITIMATE reason to be angry about, and only because they were recent. One was when I read an article about google, and came on here theorizing that google was forming some kind of army and going to take over. The other was when I called a female member a "stupid cunt".

First, on Google. The truth of that post is, I never ACTUALLY believed that Google was creating an army or taking over. I looked at my own post and thought of how ridiculous it was. I think the reason I posted such a post, when I didn't believe it myself, is because I AM a little bit worried about Google venturing into so many different business areas. They're a huge corporation. They've got their own online service for everything. They're working on an OS, if they haven't finished it already. They've got a popular browser too. I just don't want my only computer options in the future to be "Google" or "Google". So in THAT sense, I don't want Google to "take over", corporately. I don't literally think they're going to "take over" with armies, but I probably went that far because subconsciously I was afraid that my actual concerns weren't significant enough to post about. So no, I never really was paranoid enough to believe that Google would conquer the world. And I apologize for the deception.

Now, on the subject of "stupid cunt". What had happened was, there was an argument between me and another person on IRC. But the argument eventually calmed down. At one point I said some things that made it sound like I was going to re-ignite the argument, and this girl threatened to ban me if I did. I wasn't actually going to re-ignite the argument, so I said some synonym of "relax", followed by jokingly referring to her as a "stupid cunt". No, I did not mean it. No, I was not trying to be hostile at her. I didn't think she'd take it so seriously. And you know why I didn't think she'd take it so seriously? Because being an asshole is just our CULTURE here. It's how ALL of you behave. You guys call me things like "weeaboo" all the time. (Though I'm not saying "weeaboo" is as bad as cunt. But that's not the point here.) You curse each other out as a way of saying "hi". So I assumed that was just how we do things over here. I assumed being an asshole is just the way this site works. From where I'm standing, that seems to be pretty standard!

None of you moderators lifted a finger back when biohazard was behaving his worst towards me. But if I say ONE mean thing to a female, suddenly I have to defend myself in the face of judge Anski like it's a fucking court room. You probably all thought of ME as the "sexist" for the comment I made, but in reality, you guys are the sexist ones. Letting guys get away with jokingly being dicks to other guys. But the moment a guy is jokingly a dick to a girl, suddenly we've crossed the line? You don't see her as one of us. You see her as a delicate flower that needs protecting. And in that sense, I have shown her more respect than those of you who supported her decision to ban me from the IRC. (Which Judge Anski eventually overturned.) When I want somebody banned, you tell me I'm "bawwing" and show me that stupid white face icon that hasn't been funny since 2008. Why did none of you accuse the girl of "bawwing" when she wanted ME banned? Double standard much?

And by the way, if you moderators have finally decided to actually enforce decent behavior, send me a fucking memo about it, would you? Because for the longest time, I've been waiting for you guys to do so. Acting like a bunch of hooting dick holes has always been the standard here. So don't get mad at me the moment I try to behave the exact way everybody else on this site does. I'm just trying to fit in.

And that's the issue. When I'm on my best behavior, I get berated. When I act just like you guys, I get berated. I can't win! And it's not fair. I don't believe in a revolution anymore. I don't believe in taking hostages. I don't believe criminal homicide can ever be justified. I'm not bitter about what happened to my family anymore. I don't think Google is going to take over. And I'm not a sexist. And yes, I still like anime. But I hardly think personal tastes are enough reason to shit on me to the extent that you people do. The truth of the matter is, you have nothing. You have no logical reason to continue to treat me like this.

But again, you wouldn't let a thing like "logic" take away your punching bag, would you?

I want acceptance. Tell me what the fuck I have to say to finally get acceptance! Because you people can't seem to make up your minds on that. So you know what? I'm just going to sit here and fold my arms and wait for you to tell ME what to say. Tell me exactly what you want me to say so I can finally be treated the same as everybody else! Go ahead, tell me! Because I'm not putting up with this shit anymore. If I'm not correct, if you guys actually ARE logical, then tell me what it is I have to say to be accepted here.

It's easy to make fun of someone who lets it get to them, and don't expect people to enjoy how you make an essay out of every single post.

It's easy to make fun of someone who lets it get to them, and don't expect people to enjoy how you make an essay out of every single post.

Well, I had a lot of shit to explain...

frankly I think it's because you're not very active in the community at large, and nearly all of your posts in recent memory are "help I am bad at computer." you know those kids that leech rpg maker resources and help and never bother sticking around to help anyone else or even contribute to discussion? that's you but with other advice in the last 6 months.

TL;DR







Just kidding, I did read most of it, though I skimmed some of the last paragraphs. I think you're overreacting just a tad here, which is mostly the deal most people have with you I think. You blow things waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaay out of proportion. Okay, people make fun of you sometimes. It's the internet. You can't let it bother you so much.


Also, calling a girl a "stupid cunt" is never going to be taken by them as friendly ribbing. Ever.

Nobody is completely accepted here, aside from Zeriab, MA, and Jules. And Animefan you know who the veteran members are, you shouldn't let little guys get you so wound up that you make this HUUUUGE post about us hating you. That only makes people more likely to antagonize you. Everyone gets berated by everyone, just deal with it and maybe joke around back with us. Granted due to your previous behavior you might not be able to get away with as much as some do, but that's a result of your own actions.

Also are you referring to the incident with Asche or whatever her name was? Because if so, that has nothing to do with her being a female. We were probably just looking for some excuse to ban you.

Spoiler for:

I'm not sure we is the right word choice here however, as I personally dislike her more than you.

Just quit getting so worked up over everything, I can guarantee you that you won't ever get banned if you act reasonable, and if someone is personally flaming you without cause just PM me and I'll do something about it. If it's just trolling, deal with it or troll back.

Also this post is probably all jumbled up and unreadable because I'm exhausted. My apologies.

Also, calling a girl a "stupid cunt" is never going to be taken by them as friendly rimming. Ever.

Regardless of his excuse, she can be a stupid cunt at times.

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Also, calling a girl a "stupid cunt" is never going to be taken by them as friendly rimming. Ever.

Regardless of his excuse, she can be a stupid cunt at times.

Why is ribbing wordfiltered to rimming?

All rimming is friendly.

Just please don't think that everything is as serious as you think it is.

Also, calling a girl a "stupid cunt" is never going to be taken by them as friendly rimming. Ever.

Regardless of his excuse, she can be a stupid cunt at times.

Why is ribbing wordfiltered to rimming?

Because Roph.

Logic: Littering your post with not-so-thinly-veiled insults ("logic," "logic," "logic," "objective logic," "logic," "logic," "logic," "'logic,'") generally doesn't lead to appreciation.

Logic: You seemingly fall off the radar every month or two. It's naive to expect us to presume a polite post once a month outweighs the numerous, similar rants of your past when inevitably you post some ridiculous rant about how we're conspiring to tease you.

Subjective logic: I doubt anyone here holds an egregious grudge against you as you seem to believe. You need to blow off chiding, off-topic posts every once in a while. That would help you immensely.

We're not out to get you. You're teased because you overreact ostensibly at everything (OP much?). Just loosen up and be yourself; If you really feel the need to prove to us that you're a changed man, the latter is key.

I had to read that first bit a few times before I understood what "two-thousand-fuck-seven" was supposed to be.

clearly it's two-thousand-fucked-seven, and seven eight nine.

Why the hell do you care so much about being accepted here? Just go somewhere else.

I'm in a pretty similar situation, but the difference between the two of us is that I don't care what some people on the internet that live across oceans from me think about me.
As such, I don't get attacked for sulking. Which means there's less to sulk about, and, uh, less chance I would sulk in the first place. It's cyclical: people mock you because they mock you.

And if none of this makes sense, it's 1 in the morning and I've been up since 6 in the morning.

I think everyone on RMRK have looked stupid or been wrong at least once, no one is perfect. If you think you don't "fit in" here, don't post here, but before doing that I would practise not taking everything to heart, especially from people like Biohazard.

Lighten up.

No

^

Also, I banned biohazard a long time ago what the fuck are you smoking

Also will you ever learn to stop being such a bitch about things? It's like you're the most immature person on here.

I never understood the Animefan hate thing.

And I don't completely accept Modern Algebra because I'm an asshole.

you're hardly an asshole. you're like the try-hard asshole who wishes he could be.

I was joking about being an asshole. I thought someone would call me an asshole if I didn't say I were an asshole, you bitch.

hey fuck you man