But I do want to improve! I think of it like this. It's like quitting smoking. Maybe not to that level, but the same KIND of process. I can't just completely STOP and never start again, I have to slowly do it less and less, until EVENTUALLY I stop all together. Before this trial, I got a little angry because I thought it was some kind of attempt to push me out of this section. I realized I looked stupid and that I was reverting, so I edited it, but left a note stating why it was edited, because I would have felt guilty if I just deleted the comment.
I like RMRK, I really do, and I've invested so much time on this site already, so I don't want to just drop it. Then those hours would have been lost in vain. I want to improve myself, and I want to become a better member.